Not sure if there's anyone who still follows this site, but if you're out there you probably realized a loooong time ago that I have not posted anything in forever. It's been over a year I think! It's not that it hasn't occured to me. It has. Plenty of times. It started with me just not taking the time to do it last summer when I was home with the kids... my opportunities to be on my computer (with a decent chunk of time to dedicate to this), are few and far between with the littles around. And then as you know towards the end of the summer my dad got sick...
Thinking about that time in my life is still extremely painful and just makes me really sad. I miss my dad every single day. Some days are easier than others. Some days I am still in denial because it was just so surreal and sort of like an out of body experience. And some days it just plain hurts. I knew that when it came time for me to lose a parent it would be extremely painful and difficult for so many reasons. I never thought it would happen as fast as it did, especially when my dad had been living life to the fullest. He was happy and healthy and full of life and love. There is no one on Earth quite like my dad, he really was the best of the best. I am so grateful that I was able to spend the time with him that I did last summer. I lived with my dad, took care of him and basically spent every moment with him for the last month of his life while his body deteriorated and the cancer took over. Somehow through it all, he kept his positive outlook, and his faith in God and love for his friends and family never waivered. He was my hero and being able to have those last few conversations with him and spend that quality time together is something that I will cherish forever.
The pain in my heart since losing my dad is really what has kept me from posting in the last several months since his death. My dad used to respond to EVERY single blog post I ever wrote with an email saying something like, "I love you" or "your kids are so special" or "I'm so proud of you"... He was the same way on facebook. Every picture, every post. He was the first to like it and ALWAYS left a comment saying something loving or even funny or sarcastic making fun of how many pictures of my kids I take... He was by far my biggest fan and supporter online and in life, and the hole left behind after his death has been painfully deep. I know that once I publish this post and all future posts, there will be no email response from mkenney@vtaig.com. I know that I will never again get a text message or voicemail telling me he loves me or is proud of me. I try to remind myself that he IS still here with me. And he doesn't even need the blog to see what's happening with my kids, he's right here with us all along the way! And that thought makes my heart smile, he LOVED my kids. So Dad, if you're reading this now, I love you, I miss you and I hope I'm still making you proud!
Ok, now that I got that out of my system... here comes a massive flood of Meyer family pictures from the last TWELVE months! yikes.
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